Living to the max?

Dear god (whichever you are):


Thanks to you, I'm alive and kicking till now. Maybe you did thought of taking my life away that time during secondary school, but you didn't and i thank you. After that incident. i tried living life to the maximum thinking that maybe you might visit me again... but years past and nothing happen that i start living life very very normally because nothing seems to be happening and its peaceful.

Its been 5 years up till now... maybe not exactly 5 years but almost there... and now i start feeling sick like how it was during my secondary school. Its not normal flu,fever and headache.Its amnesia, pain in the heart , and lungs... Are you coming to pay a visit to me again?? Because i really don't want to see you coming. And friends, please don't ask me to go for a check up coz i seriously hate it..i don't want to visit a hospital.I hate it.I don't want to be sick.



And people who are reading , you may tag me ... but do not talk to me about this in person.
Baby, don't worry about it alright? coz everything is gonna be alright=]
cheers
jingxuan