meeting B in 2.5 hours time hehe!

Met up with cousin recently.. had alot of chat yesterday regarding the SIA interview.. i;m still in a dilema as to whether or not i should go because there are lots of things to prepare and so far i've prepared none...my cousin have been preparing posture, her script and all the very minute details like trimming eyebrows and stuff.. i did none loh and i'm so afriad that if i start preparing and i didn't get in, i felt like my effort are all wasted.. but if i got in, i cant. Reason being my parents don't really like the idea of me flying around for 18 months. They wanted me to keep my promise and further my studies next year which i don't intend to. Work has really erode my determination to study..It'll be cool to fly around different countries and making friends in the airline.

Yes or no... i'm still in a huge dilema..

The chat with my cousin continues and i know she's really in love with him. I understand her feeling; that you really don't want to get out of it the moment you think of the happy moments you shared with your loved one. No matter how you wanted to give up, you just can't because your mind will automatically erase all the bad memories and only keep the good ones for you to reminisce. But still, you yourself know what's best for you and even though i seriously hate him to the core.. but if his the one foryou, the go ahead and pursue what you want=)

Alright.. i'm gonna stop before it gets too lumpy and draggy.

Ciaos

Jingxuan