i dunno what i'm blabbering

saw jace in the bus today and i dunno what we talk but we somehow mentioned my aunt.. it's been months since she passed away. i wonder if heaven was nice.. and i want her to know that i really really really missed her alot..

My cousin once told me that she dreamt of her... until now my aunt never even visit me n my dreams.. maybe because i haven been sleeping well.. sometimes i wish she was there to tell me everything is alright.. i wanted to share lots of things with someone whom i think i can pour everything out..till now, that person, be it a boy or a girl, still never appears. Sometimes i wish to say something out without having someone saying:"see i told you alr.."

i really love us together all this while.. like it was sweet and simple.. like that day when i was sick and you appear at my doorstep with fishball noodle, i was super touched.. and when you force me to eat my dinner when i alr have no appetite..and when your alr very tired but will still try to be awake to entertain me..but sometimes i dunno what your thinking. One moment it was so nice and the next i don't feel it anymore..and when u have something in mind you don't share with me and i don't know what your thinking at all and at the end of the day we misunderstand each other's intention.. i really wish you could tell me everything that your thinking coz I'm not a mind reader(i can't believe I'm the one saying this!) i wish we can have mango pudding tgt later but i reckon its all but just another misunderstanding that we decided not to clear.

alright.. like the title states... i dunno what I'm talking too.. i just wanted to write out what i;m thinking coz i cant find the right person to tell..

Enjoy your Tuesdays, friends and family=)

Ciaos
Jingxuan