Someting Heavy (first)

Hello people! I know i haven been blogging for quite a while . So i'm gonna post 2 entries today... One a happy one.. and another a more personal one.. we will start with something heavy first before i proceed to something more hearty for you guys.. of coz you may skip the heavy part and just proceed reading the most recent entry instead.

Here Goes..


i wanna apologise & thank my friends and ofcoz, you.

to my friends,you guys have been there with me, during happy or low times.. esp my dog,fad and jia hui whose like there 24/7 via phonecall/whats app/facebook/meetup. Almost everyday without fail, we'll be talking and im glad you guys confide your problem with me.. and we're still staying strong.i once thought about whether friends take me seriously or not after my most recent encounter with a friend of mine who started talking behind my back.(Please read the entry below to find out more.) But it turns out, i gained even more great friends after that incident. So, Thank you. (Not being sarcastic coz i meant it.)

Next, i wanna apologise. I'm sorry. I know some of my friends will be pissed with me.. asking why am i apologising and crying everytime i argue with him.. well, i have to admit, i didn't tell you guys the complete story.. i am always telling my side of the story and you guys subconsciously sided with me after hearing it.. ofcoz its not totally one person's fault.. but what I'm saying is, it takes 2 hands to clap.. some of my friends may have heard of how upset or angry i was when i am with him.. doing really stupid things, pin pointing about his bad and negative points and crying..



but how many knew, that i was actually the one who broke promises first and causes him to be so upset.. how many knew, he always had to spend time coming to Hougang from Pioneer carrying a few bags to my place just to take care of me or when i wanna spend time with him... no matter how late it was ? How many knew he was always bringing me to eat at nice and good restaurant but when his alone, he ate only chap cai peng and chicken rice at coffee shop? how many knew that when i was angry and arguing with him i actually push him away with all my force literally as though i wanna beat him up but he didn't retaliate(obviously, i know I'll definitely lose-.-) ..How many knew that when I'm angry i ignored him for the rest of the day even though we are outside..how many knew that i actually got angry easily and kept saying:"aiya break la" when I'm angry?


when we are angry, we just kept filling our friends with negative stuff.. but when we are happy, we don't bother telling them so much and naturally people will start to think: why be with him/her everytime a couple quarrel? of coz I'm not saying he is totally right all the time, there are still times where his words are really too harsh to handle.. especially when im a girl..but i hope we learn. Though we fall back to zero, we can always tell ourselves:"it okay, we fell together, we can always start climbing again" it may be tiring but when its the 2 of us, it makes us stronger.


And i must admit, everytime i say i give up, i just wish you can chase me. i didn't have the thought of giving up at all. and neither will i say it unless i mean it. '

N, I LOVE YOU GUYS!

ok ending off.