Something I Want to Say

What is a friend to you? Someone who'll be there when you needed them? or just someone who'll comment on facebook,blog, twitter or whatsoever saying:"miss you babe! let's meet up" but it never came true for even once. Sometimes i don't even know your intention of writing all this.. what are you trying to show? that we're super great friends in the cyber world but in actual fact we're like total strangers?

And I'm referring to more than 1 person by the way.

And then there's these group of friends, who'll only ask me out for clubbing. Ok i know I'm quite a steady person. If i have nothing to do and you guys wanna go club, I'll still follow the majority. But sometimes, after knowing each other for so long, i wish we could do other things. like movies or normal day activity. I don't like to be crowned the party animal. It sounds awful and every time i hear it, i don't feel good. Those who already have a girlfriend currently.. you send me sms when you were quarrelling or in cold war with your own girlfriend and totally ignored me when you are in good terms with her. Sometimes when your bored (and perhaps your girlfriend is busy doing their things) you send real weird sms like I'm interested in you but i already had a girlfriend.. or i wish you could be my Part time girlfriend. Guys, am i a toy or plaything to you? i can be there for you as a friend.. but i feel real upset when i receive this type of sms. Like i don't deserve to be treated well.

Like the previous sentence, it doesn't apply to only one person.

There's this good friend of mine. I used to think no matter what she'll be there for me. Until now do i realise, I'm the one whose been asking her out. I'm the one whose been initiating to sms her. I stop sms-ing this person and from then on, i don't get a reply or sms from her until i started initiating again. Then one day, a guy friend told me she asked him out for dinner and stuff and I'm like... if you wanna compare the length we knew each other, I'll definitely win that guy.. To talk about closeness, i won't lose him either. But in the end you prefer to tell a guy your personal issue than to tell me. And yet u kept telling me we'll be there for each other.

There's more but i don't wanna write and get more emo. I just wanna get closer with all my friends since I'm single and i wanna catch up on the time that we missed when i was attached.

Don't take me for granted if you love me alright? be it as friend, lover, or family. And please sms me if you have nothing to do or i'll keep thinking negatively.

P/S Emo story aside, i still wanna watch movie and go science centre and sentosa and zoo.. anyone?

Signing off

The very upset girl who wrote this entry.