Today i cried.

Imagine how tough it was holding yor tears everytime you feel like crying but you don't want your friends to be upset and you have to just bite your lips hard and swallow all the tears.

Today seemed like a perfect day for me.. i was watching movies alone at home and suddenly i thought of moving all my stuff to the next room and start to be independent and sleep alone. Well, i'm still afraid to sleep alone.. it was an sms from someone special that just made me damn happy that i started packing and singing happily in my own room.

Then came an sms from that special someone that got me all drenched in tears and i stopped packing.the room is in a huge mess now.. i'm feeling real down too.. i thought i was being a very good girl assuring you in everyway i can to make you feel at ease..i thought yesterday was the day we stop all the misunderstandings and start afresh...i thought you were the one who told me you don't want to be my brother or good friend.. then came that sms that i wish i had not seen but is already etched in my heart.

Oh simple thing where have you gone. I had a good cry and i'm gonna start packing to clear all the mess.

enjoy this CNY people!

ciaos
jingxuan